Height: 5 foot
CW: 265 lbs
HW: 270 lbs
LW: 150ish lbs
GW: 100 lbs
Being short, overweight, and with bad hair is not cute. I'm tired of it, I'm tired of not feeling like I can wear what I want. like I can't get people to give me a chance when they can't look past my weight, I'm tired of having to make excuses why I don't do things based on my weight. It's almost been a scapegoat for me in some ways and I'm finally refusing to continue to contribute to what people have pegged me as: the fat girl.
I have really unhealthy views towards weight. I have realistic observations of it. I have times where I set impossible goals thinking I'll achieve them and I have a strong knowledgeable background that disproves all the crap I come up with in my mind. I basically battle myself and I'm starting to outsmart myself. For better or for worse - we'll just have to wait to find out.
Why do I post embarassing things about me on lj communities? Hoping someone can feel a little less like the only one. Take care everyone.