IrishDontPlay (irishdontplay) wrote in fat_ed,

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Yeah Well...

Age: 24
Height: 5 foot
CW: 265 lbs
HW: 270 lbs
LW: 150ish lbs
GW: 100 lbs

Being short, overweight, and with bad hair is not cute.  I'm tired of it, I'm tired of not feeling like I can wear what I want. like I can't get people to give me a chance when they can't look past my weight, I'm tired of having to make excuses why I don't do things based on my weight.  It's almost been a scapegoat for me in some ways and I'm finally refusing to continue to contribute to what people have pegged me as: the fat girl.

I have really unhealthy views towards weight.  I have realistic observations of it.  I have times where I set impossible goals thinking I'll achieve them and I have a strong knowledgeable background that disproves all the crap I come up with in my mind.  I basically battle myself and I'm starting to outsmart myself.  For better or for worse - we'll just have to wait to find out. 

Why do I post embarassing things about me on lj communities?  Hoping someone can feel a little less like the only one.  Take care everyone.
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